... Right.

"Satoshi "Zipang" Katsura" (sundowne36)
06/27/2016 at 13:47 • Filed to: None

Personal stuff after the jump.

Right... How do I put this...?

I just woke up to a facebook feed that told me one of my closest friends from an old community center (a place I used to hang out to a point that it was kind of a second home) had committed suicide.

I... To be honest, I literally had no words except the last time I was talking to him (two weeks ago), he was actually doing fine! I never thought I’d realize that deep down, he wasn’t.

Damn... Thanks, Ty... I’ll see you again sometime. I hope you’re resting peacefully, man.

DISCUSSION (10)

$kaycog > Satoshi "Zipang" Katsura
06/27/2016 at 13:52

That’s a tough one. I’m sorry for your loss.

Xyl0c41n3 > Satoshi "Zipang" Katsura
06/27/2016 at 13:54

I’m sorry for your loss, Satoshi.

Azrek > Satoshi "Zipang" Katsura
06/27/2016 at 14:01

I had an opposite, but similar ending recently.

I had just moved to Maryland and hating life. My friend Greg moved close by in Penn. We planned to goto a Comic Convention together in the fall. I started planning and sending him messages. We were gonna get a hotel near the convention and split the cost.

August came and I started asking what room we preferred at the different hotels. No reply...I waited a few days and pinged him again. Nothing. I never check people’s facebook pages. I use it completely to keep in touch with friends.

Finally I posted on his page asking him what’s up in October.

His wife replied...”Greg died in August in a car wreck”

I sat there stunned and deleted my post. I had no idea. If I had scrolled down it was full of funeral information and other stuff on the accident. Suddenly I can’t goto this event...as it was supposed to be old friends getting together. Now it is an event that seems like a remind of what could’ve been.

Brian, The Life of > Satoshi "Zipang" Katsura
06/27/2016 at 14:05

Damn. I wish everyone who needed it could get the help they need to get them through life’s temporary problems. Sorry for your loss, man.

Justin Young > Satoshi "Zipang" Katsura
06/27/2016 at 14:11

Suicide... *sigh* Sorry, I’m having thoughts of my attempts back when I was a stupid tween.

I offer my deepest condolences to your friend. I bet he made you smile. :’(

Svend > Satoshi "Zipang" Katsura
06/27/2016 at 14:12

Sorry to hear that mate.

Sometimes there are signs there is something wrong but most often there is no outward sign or anything specific that triggered it which is why when we (people with depression) start to feel low, we need to take action, distract ourselves and/or talk to someone.

I’ve come to manage mine by car cleaning and car forums but I’ve gone through it for many years, for others it’s new or they haven’t found their way of dealing with it yet. It’s not something that will ever truly go away.

RoboRed "The road to hell is paved with overturned Vanduras" > Satoshi "Zipang" Katsura
06/27/2016 at 14:56

So sorry to hear about that, man. I can’t imagine what you must be going through.

Bman76 (no it doesn't need a WS6 hood) M. Arch > Satoshi "Zipang" Katsura
06/27/2016 at 16:40

That’s rough, especially considering what you’ve been dealing with lately. I can promise that it does get better though. When I was in high school we lost three people I knew well, 2 of my football teammates and a fellow band member, to suicide in 4 years.

It’s brutal to deal with, but I really can promise that it does get better.

Satoshi "Zipang" Katsura > Azrek
06/28/2016 at 04:11

What hurts me the most is that a couple of years ago, I too planned on going to a convention but at the same time, I was planning on developing a costume as well - until I sort of lost confidence in completing it.

His message to me at the time? (Something to the tune of this: )

“I believe in you! You can do it! :D “

Few years later and I’m regretting on my inability to finish it.

Hearing your story, even I could feel the heaviness from that tragedy, and I know I can’t do much, but I hope your friend’s resting well.

Satoshi "Zipang" Katsura > Xyl0c41n3
06/28/2016 at 04:23

It’s alright... Just trying to cope with the fact that he went and did that. I’ll talk to you later about it, okay...?